26/1/2017: Well it is 6:53pm on a Thursday evening and I left work at 12:00 today so you know what that means right? Anxiety and panic attacks are in full swing. Ugh. If it's not one of them it's the other, or both. It's lovely! ..sarcasm.. I don't know if I will be going into the office tomorrow. Gotta see if I can make it in to see my doctor.
Okay now I am getting more comfy. I am curled up here in my computer chair with a blanket over me. To my left I have my Tamas lined up one by one, and to my right I have my Furby, Toh-Loo Kah chatting up a storm. He isn't impressed that I am ignoring him right now, but I guess I can't please everyone. :P Oh he just went "HHmmmmm.... Boring!", so he is not having it tonight. Little cutie he is. :)
Alrighty then this week has been a dozy if I do say so. I hardly update these blogs anymore because most all of the exciting things are happening on my other pages. For months I have been updating the Mesutchi Osutchi blogs and tonight I made my final post in that section - well my final one for now. Birukotchi on my pink Mesu passed away this afternoon of old age. I had a great run with Mesu and Osu. It's hard to beleive I had them going since September. That is well over 4 months now! I will hatch them again someday soon. :)
Upon finishing up my post on the Mesu and Osu blogs, I realized that I really have no Tamas to talk about in this blog besides Mimitchi Tama. My Yasashii Tamagotch and Devilgotchi have their own blog pages that I have been updating daily. I feel like this section of my site has become forgotten. Well I definitely haven't forgotten this blog because this is where everything started for me on this website. :)
Speaking of Mimitchi, he is 20 years old today and I really haven't paused him up until tonight when I felt if I didn't pause him he would die on me. Life has been stressful lately and I've just constantly had Mimitchi clutched in my hand. I don't want him to leave me tonight so I decided to pause him to be safe. I have a pretty good feeling he only has about a half days worth of time left. I will end up having to raise him over the weekend when that happens.
So just now I was here sitting at my computer chatting to Kat and Shawn and decided I really needed to hatch another Tama. I hatched my yellow/oragen Japanese P2 just shortly before 7:00 and when I pulled the tab I was surprised with a different egg - all black! This is a series 1 Japanese P2 which means a different secret character. :)
So right now my newly hatched Tama is Tonmarutchi and content for the moment. I just cleaned up his poop 
and he is a happy little camper. :) I am hoping for Zukitchi or Pochitchi as my adult because I have heard mixed reviews that the secret character can come from either of those guys. So I guess it will be a surprise who I end up with. Feels nice to be caring for a P2 Tama besides Mimitchi again. And to think there was a time when I *just* played with P1/P2 Tamas. That's the great thing about Bandai, they released so many incarnations that it is hard to ever tire of the hobby.
I tell you I thought that I had been making progress with my anxiety and panic disorder this week, but that couldn't have been a more wrong assumption today when 12 noon hit. I just took off out of work and didn't even tell my boss. I had to send her a text message after I had gotten out of there and calmed down a little. I just can't handle anything when the anxiety takes over, and I really don't know how it hit so fast today. I guess it's just all part of that crazy thing that we call life....
I find that it is easier getting more personal in these blogs and I have actually gotten some good feedback about it (Hi Elana :;)) I definitely feel better when I write about what's going on in my life, the good and the bad stuff. Today I have been going back and forth between feeling content and feeling completely terrified every 10 to 15 minutes. That is what happens when my medications get increased, and the doctor made that increase in my prescription on Monday so now I am feeling the effects of it. I don't know if I am doing the right thing in staying off work while I adjust. I know that my Doctor will write me off for as long as I need to, but I don't know if my workplace will be too happy about it. They have always been so supportive of my illness, but I always feel like I am gonna cross the line and seem like I am milking the system. I never want to be that person.
Back in February 2014 I took five months off from work. So that will be three years ago coming up next month. On February 14, 2014 I left work with a doctors note and didn't go back again until July. I was going through a horrible time with my anxiety at that time and I really needed the time away from work. Well, I don't want to do that this time. I just want to get adjusted to my new dose of Zoloft and get back to work ASAP. I need my routine, I need to get up in the morning and go out into society like any other person. I can't let this illness get me again like it did before.
Yeah this blog is getting very personal.... Anyways.... What else can I talk about? I really have nothing else to talk about right now other than Tamas and Mental Health. Oh yeah it was mental health awareness week this week so that was kinda cool. Bell Aliant donated 5 cents for every text message sent yesterday to mental health institutions. :) I am so glad that the subject is becoming more talked about in society. I just wish I felt more comfortable talking about it in my real life. I get brave here. :)
I have been busy working on yet another section to add here at ginjirotchi.ca. It will be a brand new section all dedicated to the Tamagotchi Connection! I guess it's about time I start to play catch up and raise some of the 2000's Tamas. The 90s ones will always be my fave, but I really wanna experience some of the newer ones. I am taking my time with that section because I want it to look visually appealing, but you can definitely expect that to be up and running in the next few months. :)
That be all for now! I will update more when my newly hatched Tama changes into adulthood. I am excited to see if I can get the other secret character. And I am sure the next time I write I will be raising a new Mimitchi has he is very close to his departure date. Until then, take care friends.